Home again.

I step out of the airport. The air is thick with moister, the noises of the city and the crickets work together to make an oddly comforting symphony and I know that I am home.

It is odd, I used to hate this place. The humidity was unbearable, the people drove me insane and the bugs were horrible. But as the years have gone by and I have gone to other places and have grown in many different ways I realize all the merits this place has, I begin to miss it more and more every-time I leave and I cant help but feel comfort when I step out into the sticky air once again.

Its not so much the place itself I miss but the people here. My best friend Kylee has been there since I was a little girl and she was there waiting for me at the airport, it was so amazing to see her after more than a year! In fact I am at her place at this very moment as I write, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I have missed her bluntness and her sweet, sweet heart. It takes a little while to get used to her personality but once you do there is no replacing it. I will soon see my family whom I have missed very much. I get to see their new girlfriends/wives and I get to see my beloved nephew Erich who brings tears of joy to my eyes every time I see him. And as I write this blog I realize that it isnt really the place that I miss at all, but the love around me, the comfort of knowing that no matter what happens I have several people willing to do anything for me.
I have the great blessing of a close dear friend that understands me better than anyone and a relationship with my family that some people only dream of. I know that I am blessed and I thank God everyday for it, I would be incredibly ungrateful if I didn't.

Isn't it amazing how much we take for granted while we are young?I mean I am not trying to pretend I am wiser than I am. I know that there are still many things I take for granted and I think that most everybody takes somethings for granted. . But as I look back on my teenage years, those foolish, funny years, I wish I had taken more time to just take a deep breath and enjoy my surroundings instead of looking towards the next tomorrow, when I was young that's all there was. .  and to some degree its still like that.

All I can try to do is take moments like these, when I actually see all I have and how happy I actually am and try my best to hold onto it until the next moment rolls along. We spend so much time focusing on our furture that we forget to be happy with our present and I dont want to look back on these times when I am 30 and think "Wow, I was so ungrateful and stupid!" Which I know I will to some degree. . everyone does.
But my hope is that maybe I'll be able to lessen it and appriciate this place and my life a little more.

Sorry about the somberness of this post and the back and forth feel of it, just one of those thinking nights I guess. Good night.

Harry Potter and Zombies

So I was apart of the millions of people that went to go see the last Harry Potter at a ridiculously early hour, only instead of 12 I was there at 3 am. All I have to say is that it was TOTALLY WORTH IT! By far it is the best the of the series. The actors have grown greatly and emotions were intense and the action kept you at the edge of your seat. . plus it made me tear up a little, I NEVER TEAR UP at movies. This however was the exception, the great, great exception. It goes needless to say that this movie has the coveted Kirsta's stamp of approval. I can't go much further than this cause I do not want to spoil things but if you have been on the fence let me push you over and say GO AND SEE IT!

Now on to other important topics. Currently I would like to address America's obsession with. . .ZOMBIES! Yes, Zombies, it has become a huge topic of discussion amongst me and my friends and amongst Americans all around. Will it be the next apocalypses? What kind of Zombies are more likely than others? Well through my extensive studies I have come to conclusion that the Zombies we will more than most likely face wont actually start out as Zombies, at least the way we know them, they will start out as the sick and feeble, and then BAM! they will go crazy. It will start out as a virus but will soon get out of control. Yes, that is my prediction. If you would like to see it come to life watch 28 DAYS LATER starring Cillian Murphy.
Also I used to think living in a fortified house in the swamps was the  best idea, ya know since the water and wild life would be all around for natural protection, but talking with Jacq (my local associate on the matter) I have realized that up in the freezing cold mountains would be a better idea.

Here are the reasons.
1. Because its high up and zombies aren't very good at climbing.
2. It is so cold the Zombies would freeze before reaching us.
3. It also acts as the safe point from the non infected humans who have gone insane.

In conclusion.
America's obsession with this topic is both good and bad. It keeps us aware but also keeps us experimenting. . . I will start looking for land available in the mountains.

Till next we speak.

The first.

Well tonight will be my first ever blog post, I feel like I am growing so much! I can actually express emotion and thoughts for others to read and not be completely embarrassed about it, completely being the key word. So while reading, please keep in mind my newness.

I guess I should explain my title a little bit. I know that its a little depressing, pessimistic, dispiriting etc. But it is also very appropriate. Ever since I was a child I have always thought that the grass was greener on the other side and I never really got over it, even now I am still desperately trying to get to that other side of the blasted fence. But don't worry, this will not be a whining depressing blog, though I am sure sometimes it will have its moments, I will try to keep it relatively positive because even though I feel this way I have always tried to stay optimistic. I often call myself an optimistic pessimist because I hope and pray for the best but I prepare and expect the worst, which I think, if we are all honest with each other, we all do.

Now, the reason I started a blog in the first place is so friends that I have made while in school can keep up with me and hear my wonderful opinions which I know they all love so much. But, also for a creative outlet. I have tried journal writing, and I haven't completely given up, but this seems like it would be a better outlet than a journal so we (and by we I mean me) will try it. So if you follow me and you do not know me than WONDERFUL! I always like to know that people pay attention to me :).

Well that is it for my first blog post, not very interesting I know but I assure you it will get better. At least I hope it will. Haha.